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etrigan
etrigan
So it looks like I was accidentally enabled to see a post made, about me, that I was supposed to have been filtered away from -- since I can no longer see it. I'm not going to "sit tight" and have emotionally crippled idiots cackling away behind my back like MacBeth's witches. So I'm dealing with this now, because I'm tired of being berated and bad mouthed by small minded bitches. To those people who have the capacity to be firefaes "friend" without turning it into a witch hunt for things I've allegedly done, I thank you for being there for her. To the rest of you, regardless of what I might have said to you recently, in messages or emails, this is your invitation to fuck right off.

When I fuck up I deal with the consequences, plain and simple. I might deal with them in a passive aggressive manner, or I might deal with them in a head-on fashion, but I deal with them.



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1) For the record I never implied or intended to abandon my cats, where I go they go.

2) Would all those who I've been "bragging too recently" please come forward and be counted? Because I sure as hell don't remember talking to you.

3) I've spent the last several years quietly accepting scorn, putting up with insults and accepting antipathy just to save face and protect other people's image, honour and reputation. This latest witch hunt, to the tune of what a horrible person etrigan is is my breaking point.

I thought I'd been pretty empathic on Thursday evening, I thought I was pretty straight forward and honest about the problems that have ruined my relationship -- problems that I've spent the last 3 years trying to fix over and over again. Sure, I've contributed my share of problems, I acknowledge that, and strangely you people have no idea of what I've put up with, why? Because I have more respect for my partner than that. So while I'm the subject of private posts, scornful bashing and malicious plotting at least I have my self respect.

One more lie surfaces that I'm the subject of and I'll flip this little charade on its ear.

Currently feeling : angry angry

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firefae From: firefae Date: May 28th, 2007 12:20 am (UTC) (Link)
Anything I have said in a post is not a lie, just a fact or observation. Perhaps there are people I shouldn't be listening to, but it's hard not to grasp for any detail about what is making you happier than ever. To me, I was left for another girl. Wouldn't that make you angry? Then Thursday, you shared your feelings with me and I now understand what is going on. Hell, I even wanted you back.

I publicly apologize for hurting you.
etrigan From: etrigan Date: May 28th, 2007 09:10 pm (UTC) (Link)
I appreciate that you were hurting, and the sentiment with which this is offered; at the end of the day, however, how much do you honestly think an apology in my own forum, to people who haven't (evidently) already written me off will help?

ruxpin_exe From: ruxpin_exe Date: May 28th, 2007 03:26 am (UTC) (Link)
I love to read drama from an outside perspective.

That having been said, hope things arent too retarded for you.
etrigan From: etrigan Date: May 28th, 2007 09:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
That means alot to me, especially coming from you ;)

If you manage to find some free time this week, let me know?

ruxpin_exe From: ruxpin_exe Date: May 28th, 2007 09:12 pm (UTC) (Link)
Today is my only day off.
etrigan From: etrigan Date: May 28th, 2007 09:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
Perhaps Velvet thursday?
ruxpin_exe From: ruxpin_exe Date: May 28th, 2007 09:14 pm (UTC) (Link)
eh.. I don't remember what I work that day.. but its a possibility.
From: key_ton Date: May 28th, 2007 12:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
This is why I have always felt that other people's relationships are just not my business. Two of my friends who I actually set up were having big problems recently and everyone I knew wanted to get involved. It took me forever to get people to understand that they are adults who can make their own decisions and really don't need our help.

People will do what people will do. you just got to stay positive and remember who you are inside and nothing else really matters.
rtwo From: rtwo Date: May 28th, 2007 02:00 pm (UTC) (Link)
I second this. Noone will ever know what truly went on in a relationship except the two people in that relationship. And it's none of their business, either. You can support a friend with a broken heart without spreading rumours. Some people seem to be addicted to the drama, however. It's unfortunate because it makes a difficult situation more painful for the broken-hearted.
It is fortunate that you're moving soon (right?) and will be able to escape this. I have to say, it's been nice to escape the never-ending drama of the Toronto scene.
etrigan From: etrigan Date: May 28th, 2007 09:12 pm (UTC) (Link)
N & R - Thanks for reminding me I'm a grown up too.

Nic, I'll miss you when I move hon, even if we don't see each other much anymore...

Rach - You can't escape me that easily, I'll be seeing you in a couple of years, *fingers crossed* ;)

From: key_ton Date: May 29th, 2007 03:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'll miss you to Big cat ;)
etrigan From: etrigan Date: May 29th, 2007 11:42 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm at a loss for something witty and full of innuendo to say. Don't tell anyone I choked.
From: key_ton Date: May 30th, 2007 02:05 am (UTC) (Link)
<3
tormenta From: tormenta Date: May 28th, 2007 06:23 pm (UTC) (Link)
Breakups suck. For everyone involved. I'm sorry you're both hurting right now.

I found in my time of need that a close friend or two to whom I could complain extensively, at length, and often about the LJ shinnanigans was much more helpful than trying to fix the LJ shinanigans by posting about them. I pass that piece of wisdom on to you, for what it is worth. =(
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etrigan From: etrigan Date: May 29th, 2007 11:40 pm (UTC) (Link)
I read what you posted on her LJ. Considering how often I spoke positively of you and stood up for you and was concerned about the way you're treated by other "friends" of hers... I was less than impressed.


phoboskitty From: phoboskitty Date: May 29th, 2007 04:29 pm (UTC) (Link)
see all this is because you don't play WoW anymore!

LOL

etrigan From: etrigan Date: May 29th, 2007 11:41 pm (UTC) (Link)
Sweet merciful fuck. I NEVER played WoW. I only play games that require skill.


Did you ever use that Vanguard code I gave you?

phoboskitty From: phoboskitty Date: May 30th, 2007 12:12 am (UTC) (Link)
haha!
phoboskitty From: phoboskitty Date: May 30th, 2007 12:13 am (UTC) (Link)
it never downloaded so i will try again
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