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I don't miss highschool. I don't miss histrionic melodrama, internet… - Exit, pursued by a bear.
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etrigan
etrigan
I don't miss highschool. I don't miss histrionic melodrama, internet social program soap operas (which I'm thankfully too old for anyway) or loathe-some, two-faced single-serving friends who really only pretend to like you because they're socially climbing, or feel obligated to due to some misguided principle of loyalty towards your significant other/brother/sister/clique. I've discovered that I know, bluntly, a lot of cowards, very small people and most importantly, people I can happily live without in my life. I'm always "impressed" by people who, because they knew me at one point in my life, assume that I'm exactly the same person I am now, as I was then.

I've never had the capacity to turn love into hatred, and I'm certainly not about start now.

As most of you know, firefae and I broke up early May 2007, some of you are probably nodding or shaking respective heads. Some of you are probably elated by this, I doubt many are upset. Our inevitable break-up has been along time coming, steadily fueled by attempts at forced compatibility as something more than friends, bitter outsiders who think they know better, and "so-called friends" feeding serious problems. I'm not going to turn this into an attack, but I'm done pretending to be nice, or friends with many, many people. If you're *remotely* interested in hearing my side of things you're welcome to ask. If I think it's any of your business, which if you're my friend, it is, then I'll tell you.

I honestly couldn't be happier at the moment, and for the first time in along time I'm feeling things that I shouldn't ever have not been feeling. I imagine, ironically, my ex feels largely the same way.

Currently feeling : productive productive

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jackie_la From: jackie_la Date: May 23rd, 2007 05:45 pm (UTC) (Link)
*hugs* I'm glad your happy. HOw are u feeling anyways? all better from being sick by now I hope!
viking_girl_242 From: viking_girl_242 Date: May 23rd, 2007 05:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
I can't honestly say that I know either of you very well but I like both of you anyway. And since you didn't post about the situation previously I only had the one sourse of information to make any opinions about the situation. I was really surprised that you two got together in the first place but you had seemed happy and that made me happy. I don't have any "real" feeling either way about your break up but the fact that it does seem to be making both of you so much happier then I feel it would be best to take the supportive stance.

I'm glad you're happy and that the pain is largely over.
etrigan From: etrigan Date: May 23rd, 2007 07:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
My biggest concern was remaining friends with Darci, regardless of whatever else happened.
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etrigan From: etrigan Date: May 23rd, 2007 07:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yup. I'm gradumacated now.
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etrigan From: etrigan Date: May 23rd, 2007 07:52 pm (UTC) (Link)
With regards to where I've been: I needed to drop off the face of the Earth for a bit in order to get my thesis finished. It wasn't getting done as long as I was returning calls, talking to people and/or going out.

Here's a tip for getting in touch with me though...try between the hours of 6-8pm ;) You keep calling me well, well after I've gone to bed darlin.

syngen262 From: syngen262 Date: May 23rd, 2007 07:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
Umnmmmmmmmm....
I have no comment either way, due to fact I never saw the two of you interact.
Therefor I will state that this is all probably a good thing for both of you.
Good luck and fair fortune.
squonk From: squonk Date: May 23rd, 2007 10:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
I didn't know about this, and I'm sorry to hear it only because it couldn't have been an easy transition. But I'm very, very happy that you're feeling like it was exactly the right move, and also that you're shedding old, slimy skin that you don't need. Be well. *hug*
taluagel From: taluagel Date: May 24th, 2007 12:06 am (UTC) (Link)
Always an open ear but I never choose sides, I loathe drama and seek not to get involved. That said, I like both of you as individuals and would never vie one way or another over a situation that I have no baring in. Lettin you know where I stand mate.
goratrixx From: goratrixx Date: May 24th, 2007 03:09 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hey, in my relationships I spend a lot of effort fostering separateness between my own and my partner's groups of friends. I find it vitally important that there is some separateness so that in times of crisis you have some objective viewpoints/positions to rely on, if need be.

I've also been accused of being overly self-preservationist in my attitude; i.e. that it fosters distrust and a sense of inevitable doom.

Just my thoughts anyway. I find in a break-up that one of tbe most troubling things is establishing youself in a separate, independent life. I guess I just like to ensure that you keep a check on that as well as the closeness of the relationship you're in.
weasel242 From: weasel242 Date: May 25th, 2007 05:40 pm (UTC) (Link)
Meh, my main thought had been 'Where the hell is that guy?'

And... Are there really "sides" at our age? It would be cool to get out there and have a drink with ya sometime. If you feel like talking about what went down, then by all means... If not then I am sure we can fill the time much how we always had in the past. Always lots to talk about when you rarely see someone.

I am currently in my 'drop off the face of the earth' phase, but I *might* spend a week in Toronto soon. OH... I got on yer fricken Facebook thingy. I have to get a pic and do some page setup.. but Ravovich Figtree is the name.

You moving soon or what?
Drop me a FB msg.
firefae From: firefae Date: May 26th, 2007 07:07 am (UTC) (Link)
I know you aren't as happy as you say. I love you and could never be without your friendship.

And on come the tears...I'm getting tired of this.
etrigan From: etrigan Date: May 27th, 2007 11:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
No, you're correct. After the lies I've read I'm certainly not "as happy as I say."

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